I’ve been at Karmanos for over three weeks now; away from the normal everyday lifestyle I was used to living. It is an extremely hard adjustment. I’ve been subjected to numerous medications, beginning with chemo, transplanting someone else's stem cells in my body, which my body doesn’t like creating all sorts of complications, and a whole slew of other things as each day passes.
Through all of this, I have shared many thoughts, dreams, fears and hopes. This journey is so hard; it really is. Nights are the worst. Pain seems to awaken during the overnight hours, which is lovely and oh so comforting. Falling asleep is hard as well. Even my Deep Relaxation Pandora One Channel doesn't do the trick. So I toss and I turn, I pray and think of my family. They are my refuge when I need them and even when I don't.
My dad, mom, sister and son have been relentless in their unconditional support to ensure that this fight will end up victorious. That is love; a bond that connects my family and I now and forever. No family is perfect, but I know that I am in the best family through this life-saving journey. They are the ones that will lift me when I am falling and cheer the loudest when I am cancer-free.
Love your family, keep them close to your heart and make sure THEY know you love them too.
I love you dad, mom, Dawn and J. You guys are my heart and soul!